Point of Realisation

I am a true believer of the word co-incidence. I feel that from the day I was born till the time what I am now, co-incidence has played a huge role in my life. It is more than just a word for me.

When all things seem to have been going right, I felt I am the best person to have born in this life. But at the same time things have gone terribly wrong as well, and to pass through that period was really tough but end result what I gained through that? EXPERIENCE!. It feels good to love and be loved. However bad 'love' is getting misused in today's world, I am a true lover of that word and I know its worth. I fully understand its meaning and with so much emotions filled in my heart I want to experience it! I want to show how it is done and how correctly it should be done. It is not any movie influence or any other external influence but just my own realisation.

Once upon I time I was given so much love to the extent that I felt gifted and theres nothing else better I can get. But when the tides turned, I realised that everything else I get is better than what I had got in the past and that was the point when I realised that there is a just a thin line lying between the word love and hate. But it is not the case now. Immatureness, temptations and along with that nature had played a huge role in my mannerism or ill say things that I shouldnt have done. The plus point of mine which I am supposed to be using for good effect, I am using for things that I need not necessarily be using it - MEMORY. It is a god given gift that my memory on anyone and anything remains, each and every small incidents with whoever it is meant to be with I can pinpoint it anytime. And when in the case where you have done 1000's of memorable and good things with me, it will erase away the one single unwanted thing which is done with me, however severe it maybe. Now that I am more mature, I know what I want, I can predict what it will lead to and of course I am in a position to risk evaluate it to the point where I know I can never lose what I have gained. Whatever I have lost it was meant for losing and not for winning. I want to win whatever is meant for winning and I badly want to win it because that is worth more than anything, even my own life!

Now, coming back to the topic, Co-incidence has led the way to what I am now. Now I know what I want. The time has come where I need to take a huge step forward in my life. No matter what happens I will have to step in but whether I will step with the right foot forward, again Co-incidense will decide it. But for that to happen, one should realise it, I have realised it.. have you??? yes you!!! :) :)