I Hate Love Stories..!

I knew this would all happen. When I first met him, I just thought he is another ordinary guy but destiny prevailed and brought me to him so close yet so far now. We 'geled' well and stood together through thick and thin. We played all games and did all activities together which no one else would've done.

I hate love stories is the movie which is running on theatres now but how much I go by this statement, no one else knows except him. On second thoughts, it is not that I hate love, in fact I love being loved and give love but yet it will never materialize in my book of life.

I made this very clear several times but I guess it fell on deaf ears. I never knew I am this much worth but all it gave me was a sense of satisfaction that there are people out there who care and show affection on me.

He would be the first person to wish me on all occasions and this made me have special affection over him. But never had I imagined myself being a life partner with him. The thought of it even gave me goosebumps and I just didnt want that to happen although I have had lots of memorable and unforgetable experiences with him.

The day which I was not looking forward to, came a little sooner than expected although I knew it is about to come anytime. I was stuck totally and did not know how to handle the situation although I have faced quite alot. This is something I hate to do but I have to do and I did it.

All I hope for now is things wouldn't change and be normal or even better in a right context. I know I can never find a sweeter person in my life. Every occasion of mine will read a letter from him saying something that would make me feel warm but yet all I can do is to just read and save it in my mind. One of those letters read,

" Dear, I wish I had not done that but I had to do it. Hoping that everythig is fine and you are in safe hands being taken care of like a gem. I hope you have not shredded single drop of tear and living your life with full of happiness and joy. Cheers, Yours lovingly......."

For all he knows, I might have not shredded a single drop of tear but reading this would definately make me do it. I still have the regret of not sharing my entire view on this for which I have always had a guilt of making him fall into a trap. I wish he had not fallen into it but.......

All I would be looking for in each and every occasion is his letter with which I assumed that he is safe and well but this time I did not get any, and thats when I knew he is no more........